Back down to earth

The first three months of VisionQuest were definitely transformative. In my previous posts I have shared many triumphs and trials both personally and professionally. My primary intention for joining VisionQuest was growth and, at the risk of sounding melodramatic, I had no idea what tests December would have in store for me.
 
The seeds of courage, strength, love, power and faith had already been planted, but was I grounded enough to keep the bottom from dropping out? Was it possible for me to choose love over fear regardless of the circumstance? Did I understand the power of creativity well enough to be able to use it during a time of crisis? The answers to these questions are all the same, Yes.
 
The first week of December, our family would lose our main source of income as well as our very utilized health insurance. In the past I would've been hysterical, depressed, wrought with anxiety, afraid to look beyond today, but I'm not the person that I was even six months ago. Instead, I was very quickly able to see the blessings and opportunities before us as a family. My husband lost a job that was making him miserable and destroying our marriage. That is not cause for distress. It is a time for celebration, gratitude and mindful intention.
 
As the holidays progressed, my husband and I took turns keeping each other fully present. We talked about all of the possibilities before us. He got to spend time with the kids that he hadn't been able to for a long time. We played. We painted. We finished Christmas shopping knowing that, somehow, the money would appear and by Christmas he had a job offer.
 
To live is to be tested and the most important realization that has come to me during the four months of VisionQuest is that my philosophy, spirituality and creativity inseparable. They are deeply rooted in my soul. The art that is my life and the art that I create come from the same source. I am the artist of my life and I can create whatever I intend. I can choose to be fearless. I can choose love.